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Ariel Harter  

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  • Deviant since Jan 9, 2006, 2:12 PM
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method to my madness

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 10, 2008, 5:57 AM
I've gone through a lot since giving up my apartment, and everything I own... I'm at home with my parents, though my mum has been in hte hospital for quite some time. Month and a half I believe... they'd had her on life support for 16 days, and didn't think she'd make it, but now she's in a rehab facility walking a few feet with a walker.

She's superwoman, what can I say? :)

I'm at a job that's less than interesting, but it's a stable job, I have good friends there, and the stress is low, so I can't quite complain about that. It's some stability I've been craving for ages, so I cherish it.

My son and I are loving our time together. I have him most of the week since his dad has a bit of a hard time keeping him in line and on a strict schedule... he recently started school, and they already moved him up to the advanced class. He's so smart. I can't believe it. He's 4 now by the way...

I'm engaged. <3 I've known this man for almost 10 years, and we'd lost touch for a few years but he found me again on facebook over winter break. He came home for leave from a tour in Iraq (he's in the army) and we cliqued. It's that movie kind of love, and sickening, really. My son adores him, we're that happy little family. He has 7 more months, give or take, to go in Iraq, and we're getting married in December.

We had one of our dogs put down yesterday, and I'm having a hard time accepting it. A hard time accepting a reality, actually. I was outright convinced I'd go out on the couch and she'd be there, but she wasn't, and I was quite confused why.

I spent time in IP last year... 5 days. I have BPD and PTSD, and left without counseling, my case manager told me recently that she's worried I'll develop multiple personalities. I dissociate regularly. After last night and my inability to realize my dog was gone, I was actually a bit afraid of it.

I always joke about being crazy, I didn't realize I was slowing getting there.

I have been through more in my life than I'd ever wish on anyone, and it's not about to be something I post in here... so maybe I'll use art as my outlet since I'm finally getting the knack of photoshop down.

But my days are spent trying to keep it together until my fiance comes home safely, my mother is well, and my head wants to work again.

I've come so, so far, it really would be a shame to lose it all *now*

  • Mood: Distracted
  • Listening to: Addicted - Saving Able
  • Reading: Swan Song - Robert McCammon

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 23
  • Current Residence: Phoenix, AZ
  • Interests: writing, painting, drawing, photography, spending time with my son, dancing, singing, music
  • Favourite movie: Fight Club, American Beauty, Romeo and Juliet, Tristan and Isolde, Anchorman
  • Favourite band or musician: Sia, Evanescence, NIN, Fiona Apple, Dry Kill Logic, Ra, From Zero, Muse, Slipknot, Mudvayne, Flyleaf
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock
  • Favourite artist: Van Gogh
  • Favourite poet or writer: Shakespeare
  • Favourite style or digital art: gothic art
  • Personal Quote: There are no right or wrong answers, there are only answers.
  • Tools of the Trade: charcoal, colored pencil, black pencil, acrylic, water color, photoshop

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Devious Comments

*2112AWG:icon2112AWG: Aug 30, 2007, 10:55:05 PM
Just stopping by to see how you are doing. Hope all is well. God I wish the damn summer would end. This 110+ F is getting really freaking old. Any rate lemme know whats up. If you still have my number gimme a call.

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~nateo:iconnateo: Nov 28, 2006, 12:53:00 AM Mood: Love
This is like ninety years late, but thanks for the add!

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~caffeine-skies:iconcaffeine-skies: Oct 21, 2006, 5:36:03 PM
thanks for the friend.

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You're a caca-face!
~IlxlLurvelxlCy:iconIlxlLurvelxlCy: Oct 14, 2006, 9:40:57 AM Mood: Delighted
Thanks for adding me to your friends ^_^

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"Just throw me a beat. I'll twist it, turn it, and turn it into something beautiful. Lights, the pulsation, vibe. We'll dance the night away."
~alanda:iconalanda: Oct 12, 2006, 11:01:26 AM
thanks for the :+devwatch:

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insert thought procojing statement here. or not. like i care
!torthebrave:icontorthebrave: Oct 11, 2006, 1:28:23 PM Mood: Joy
Thanks for adding me to your friends.
~shynazu:iconshynazu: Oct 10, 2006, 5:09:53 PM
thanks for the watch :)

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~N-L-CHRIS:iconN-L-CHRIS: Oct 8, 2006, 9:17:32 PM
Thanks for the favorite and I'll be seeing you around.

And congratulations on falling in love.
~GrandDisapponnitment:iconGrandDisapponnitment: Oct 8, 2006, 7:28:58 PM
thanks for adding me as a friend!
:hug:
~IllegalPoser:iconIllegalPoser: Oct 8, 2006, 6:51:44 PM Mood: Joy
Thanks for the watch :]
~sw33tn3ssfalt3rs:iconsw33tn3ssfalt3rs: Sep 26, 2006, 4:22:12 PM
Thanks for teh watch ^.^ your gallery is pretty awesome
*Kaiya-Ayame:iconKaiya-Ayame: Sep 26, 2006, 2:20:03 PM
Thanks for the watch XD
~Snowowl:iconSnowowl: Sep 26, 2006, 8:53:23 AM Mood: Love
thank you very much for the watch
~HelloPathogen:iconHelloPathogen: Jul 7, 2006, 8:52:28 PM
Thanks for the add!

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"If were alive tommorow, we'll know that were not dead..."- South Park
~LssThnPrfct1:iconLssThnPrfct1: Jul 7, 2006, 10:58:50 AM
yes I did take those :)
~HelloPathogen:iconHelloPathogen: Jul 6, 2006, 9:51:27 PM
Thanks for the fave. I like your photography. Did you take those?

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~bohemic:iconbohemic: Jul 1, 2006, 1:06:08 PM
thaaank u so much for the faav i really appreciate it:)...l

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Inspire before u expire!
>> peace <<
:)check out my:gallery:enjoy:aww:
~kinezo:iconkinezo: Jul 1, 2006, 6:54:07 AM
oh wow! thanks for the fav+!
nice gallary u got there :)
keep'em up
~zOe89:iconzOe89: Jul 1, 2006, 12:50:46 AM
thank u for the :+fav:
:hug:

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non cresce più poesia


verdena
~nurtured-futility:iconnurtured-futility: Apr 26, 2006, 5:45:44 AM
thanks for the fave babes
~arwin-eagen:iconarwin-eagen: Apr 26, 2006, 5:43:53 AM
Thanks for the :+devwatch: much appreciated

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*BlueSunset2006:iconBlueSunset2006: Apr 18, 2006, 8:26:29 AM
thanks for returning the watch!

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If you love something... Set it free.
~Cupko:iconCupko: Feb 2, 2006, 1:22:39 PM
thx for favourite ;D